As a mother now, time is going by way too fast! I'm enjoying every moment but I'm also wanting these precious moments to go in slow motion. Olivia was already born a big baby. She's a healthy girl, not chunky, not tiny. just an overall big and tall girl. She was 9 lbs when she was born and 22 in. long. (And yes, I gave birth naturally...And yes, it hurt.) They call me super mom from time to time.
But being that she was born already fitting into size 3 month clothes, she outgrew so many tiny cute outfits, so quickly. I can't bare to give her clothes away or even sell them because I want to just keep them all and stare at them for hours. Keep in mind she had enough clothes to last her an entire year before she was even born. I'm blessed to have so many people in our family who love our princess as much as we do. I can honestly say Olivia will grow up having everything she'll ever need and more and she will be very blessed indeed. I was very fortunate to have the things I had as a kid growing up, and Olivia will have even more. It makes me happy that her dad and I can do this for her.
She's already going to be 7 months on July 4th and I can't even wrap my head around that. Wasn't she just 6 months like a week ago? Will and I look at each other and then we look at Olivia and say, "time is going way too fast". It's true.
As a parent, and more over a mother, it's a hard concept to grasp. When Olivia was first born I went through a really tough time with separation anxiety and post partum anxiety. I still go through it at times but it has been easier. I go through self-guilt of wanting alone time for just me, but then I talk myself out of it because I don't want to leave my baby. I have to add something. Will is the greatest father in this world. I've never seen a more hands on, loving, and caring father than him. And let me tell you, he helps. He's no "babysitter" as a lot of women call there husbands/boyfriends. He is a full on father. He works 50 hours a week, he helps me out around the house and he always has time to spend with his two favorite ladies. This is pretty rare in today's world. So it's not like I can't go out and have time for myself. He's always urging me too, because he knows how important it is for both of us to have me-time. It's a work in progress for me. I recently went out like 4 hours by myself and I have to admit it was nice. But i really missed my loves.
Being a mom has become one of the most rewarding gifts in my life. It's a beautiful blessing to be with Will and for us to have our Olivia. It's as if life didn't exist before them.
There are times when it's tough, emotional and tiresome. It's tough being a mom, a girlfriend, working full time and juggling all of these into my daily life. It's emotional to see Olivia growing so fast. And this new chapter in my life is tiresome. But I wouldn't trade it for anything or anyone in the world. My life is crazy, but it's absolutely wonderful.
With that said; Olivia, just stop growing. :)
-An Olive Flower by Jovi Casie
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